Four Days in Sunny August

Thoughts race through my mind as I sit at a cafe in Paris. It's been almost four months now and the scars on my face are completely healed from my meeting with Jaroslav in Russia. I have deserted my hunt for the rest of the clan at the moment realizing that my efforts would end in a meeting with either Ivan or Michael. Vampires generally regroup and strategies very quickly when one of their elders has been murdered. Attacking now would be foolish even for the most experienced vampire hunters and that I am not.

The past few days of my five day stay in Paris have been spent courting a young Parisian woman whose only fascination with me is the way I talk and my innate ability to pick up her language eventhough I claimed to be from the United Kingdom. Her innocence is something has been a breath of fresh air in a violent and troublesome year leading to the death of my sister and the realization that my father is now part of the group responsible for what I have become. I welcome the pleasure. Everytime I meet his girl I am constantly reminded of the first time I learned of my regeneration abilities and how the slow growth of my severed arm actually made me feel warm all over.

I see her approaching the cafe in the distance. I wonder if she even has a clue about me and the kind of person I am. She must have told all her friends about this foreigner she met at local bar in the city. I wonder how she is going to react when I have to pack up everything I find so dear about her and get back to my work at hand.

I think of all the women in my life and how at some point in the relationship I have had 'bigger' callings to attend to. I sometimes wish this life never caught up with me and I hadn't made the choices I did.

I watch her pretty face as she kisses me on the cheek and asks me if I have been waiting long. I listen to her talk in her innocent voice and realize that its time once again to move on with my task at hand. I would love to spend the eternity given to me with her but my father would eventually find us. That is something I do not wish even on the most evil people I have come across.

I offer her a cup of coffee and tell her to meet me in my room. As I kiss her on her cheek and leave the cafe towards my room. I know what must be done before I leave Paris and I know why I have to do it. The struggle will be short before I snap the neck and drink whatever blood I can muster out of her.

You only hurt the ones you love ...

Taken from the Chronicles of Jacques Belmonte - Book Two
Music while writing this post - Celine Dion - All By Myself

Stop Running Fast Because No One Really Cares But You

Tyson Gay is probably sitting in his house today smiling to himself for numerous reasons but the one achievement he has which no one on the planet can claim current fame to is ... Fastest Man Alive. It was only recently that he acquired this title and he beat the rest of the people in the race to reach the finish line.

The purpose behind today's blog is to talk about achievements and the drive one truly requires to reach that goal. As an individual living in society its very difficult for a person to have a unified focus on a singular goal that will help him/her achieve better results/long term satisfaction over their current situation when the current situation is offering them solutions to the problems that the current situation created. Confused? I was too until I finally realized what was truly required of me to make this situation disappear.

My current life/work situation has gone through some major changes in the last two weeks that have required re-focus on goals and the changes in my career that I have slowly been striving along towards over my time in India. I have listed the changes in small paragraphs to give a brief account of why I even started this blog.

My Career
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When I first joined IBM I was like a fat kid in a chocolate factory, everything looks good so why not taste it? But over a short span of time, I learned about my options and the choices I would eventually have to make in the long run to ensure that my career actually survives the mundane time it is currently in and moves to a higher level. Unfortunately, I have been running hard in the wrong direction as far as this goes and its been a hard battle between the other circles of my life to balance everything out. How is it going? Let's just say not too well but I am going to put my foot down and take the battering just so that I don't turn into that bitter old man who everyone knows could have done better.

My Social Life
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I used to be overly social (if there is such a phrase). Alas, over the past few years, I have strived to bring people together and build the kind of social life I used to have once upon a time. In the process, I have forgotten the golden rule of the social circle concept that I have learned over the years which has taught me that if two people don't like each other then you are not responsible for making sure that they understand that they are both your friends irrespective of how they treat each other and it is not your sole responsibility to make sure everyone is comfortable and playing well together. The final result, I have to either let things burn and pick up whats left of the ashes or get burnt myself and burn all the social circles I have. I would like to take advice on this and I have in the past, but its time to once again make firm decisions like I did in early 2002 and let the actual people with the problems decide what they want to do.

These are of course the bigger points and there are smaller problems within these but the focus has to be big to make it small and I only hope that I have a bigger self-controlled drive to fix the problems that have now come back up.

Mood when writing this blog - Rushed
Music Listened to when writing this blog - Eric Clapton - Change The World

Joss Stone - Introducing

When I first heard JS it was by pure accident. 'Right to be wrong' was a track that showcased a very mellow and mildly angry Joss. The new album 'Introducing' has a much fresher sound and is very catchy. 'Arms of my baby' is a very fast paced and beat-rich song showcasing the wider range that JS can actually reach. Great sound, good purchase and totally recommended if you want to actually listen to something a bit different from the standard pop and radio stuff you are listening to.





Playlist
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1. Change (Vinnie Jones Intro)
2. Girl They Won't Believe It
3. Headturner
4. Tell Me `Bout It
5. Tell Me What We're Gonna Do Now feat. Common
6. Put Your Hands On Me
7. Music feat. Lauryn Hill
8. Arms Of My Baby
9. Bad Habit
10. Proper Nice
11. Bruised But Not Broken
12. Baby Baby Baby
13. What Were We Thinking
14. Music Outro

Overall Rating : 8/10

Music listened to while writing this post - Arms of my Baby - Joss Stone
Current Mood - Carefree