Curbing The Addiction

Today is quite a special day, I finally figured out why I like cigarettes so much and its not the smoke or the pleasant high I actually get when I smoke them. If you've ever taken a stab at understanding why you smoke you'll know the kind of feeling I am actually having right now. Although, I made ground during a fight with my wife, its the comfort of knowing that I can put one in my mouth and I don't have to worry about opening my mouth for anything except to place it on the ashtray or put it out. Sadly, after countless hours of pondering this happens to be the sole reason. In my moment of triumph however, I figured out that while quitting is a good option, I now have to find other ways to satiate my lack of a cigarette so here is my list for the week.

1. Weddings are a pain in the ass and usually end up leaving one person sour for the rest of their life about how things went on that blessed day (I know a lot of you rainbow and pony people are going shame on you right now)
2. Sharks and Remora have found successful ways to co-exist which have taken them years of evolution and understanding. Couples and their in-laws are light years away.
3. It's better to say your wrong even when you aren't. Chances are you can sit down years later and smile about the fact that you were and it cost you absolutely nothing to do so.
4. It's good to let your hair down now and then but remember that when you do let it down ensure that no one else knows your doing so. Why? Because everyone has an opinion and that's not the point of the exercise is it?
5. Liverpool will spend another season without a single trophy unless they get the Europa Cup. Then, they will go on to win the Champions League thereby leaving them with no domestic trophies yet again.
6. When I am 40, I'd like to climb a mountain just to say I did it at the age of 40.
7. God is a spiritual entity who most people think behaves like Oprah Winfrey but in reality he's closer to Adolf Hitler
8. Life in Goa is more peaceful than anywhere else on the planet. No one bothers you and for the most part you don't know that they even exist
9. Speech is the most advanced form of communication on the planet. Even if Google finds a way to provide us with a smarter communication medium it would fail because it requires someone talking about it to promote it to the masses
10. I will not be with my present company in under 500 days. I think that one is probably more true than the nine other points before this.
11. Ever wonder why they created a brand of condoms called Trojan? Durex has it right.
12. TV Shows are someone's sadistic way of laughing at your pathetic life while showing you a way in which no one else on the planet lives - Oh dear the Irony.
13. Music can soothe the savage beast - Try playing a Concerto to a Lion just before it pounces chances are he thinks its dinner music and will eat you with a fork and knife

Mood while writing this blog - Uncomfortable

Music listened to while writing this blog - I think I am giving up music for a bit

The Drive

This week is going to be special for me. Why you might ask? Because this week I will either end Friday with something so wicked and evil that the people that are involved might wonder what just hit them and how it hit them. It's been a fight that I have struggled with for over four years now and its finally made me reach to a stage where my brain is telling my body that its time to stop being pushed around and fight for your right to be at peace. Some of it is financial but most of it is just lack of respect for skills and that makes me want to break something even more than trying to fix the problem. Unfortunately I cannot divulge the nature of my act because I have taken almost 29 years to sort this out in my mind but today I finally reached the full extent of my patience and I am about to start planning the execution.

All I am going to do for now is breathe because the alternative will probably end my career but the results will make me extremely happy.

Cheers to slavery because without it we would have nothing to quantify the things that happen to us when we are driven to do things that fall way beyond the accolades we receive.

Mood at this point - Focused
Music - Sabotage

Year One - My close friend Mr. Death

As it has become customary these days, I have my list of 13 that signal my entry into the month of September. I've been thinking about death lately and how it affects certain people in ways that sometimes baffle me. I don't understand, nor will I ever, why some people completely break-down at funerals. Personally, I find it a bit self-serving as its a release mechanism that allows you to let go of the person that is gone. Sometimes, I also wonder why everyone else around the person crying don't try and bring them back to reality with a word of comfort or some stern advice about the beauty of life. Of course, I will be called heartless and a total emotionless fuck because of the same but that really doesn't matter to me because I still find it very illogical and pretty selfish at the end of the day.

1. When a pet dies, crying doesn't help because you paid for your pet or got it for free so what your really crying for is loss of investment if you think about it
2. Gas chambers are silly. If you wanted to know the effects of gas on people why not just lock yourself in a room and gas it with a button to let the gas out when your done choking yourself.
3. Tiger Woods can put a golf ball in a hole but he can't use a cellphone discreetly
4. Smoking isn't bad but the effects have made society think otherwise
5. An apple a day keeps the doctor away. So why are so many doctors eating apples?
6. During wedding preparations the bride isn't the only one that goes through hell
7. Bruce Wayne would never have become Batman if he had gone to a good shrink
8. Having a special day for teachers also implies that there should be one for every other profession on the planet
9. Religion is nothing but sales-pitching these days. Don't like one move to another.
10. Heinz is the one company I respect the most in the food manufacturing industry. How can something so cheap as a unit product generate so much money
11. If IQ tests were a gauge for people being allowed to live or die, we'd never have the concept of genius. Corruption might have bit the dust too
12. Top Gun should be retired from Television permanently. Make people pay for the DVD or BR
13. The next time someone tells me that TV Shows are a brain-rotting experience I would like to ask them what politics is. I mean you've got drama, suspense and humour along with all the other makings of a good TV Show

Mood while writing this post - Tired and confused