Achtung

As I write this blog, I am consistently plagued by the question of whether or not I should write it. The beginning of a new year usually starts with some kind of resolution. Perhaps I will give up smoking? Work towards world peace? Get a better job? Live a healthier life? But, the answer to all these silly resolutions is no. It was during the Christmas season that I first experienced what I really wanted to experience for the longest time. That is when I made the first resolute to actually work towards it. We all have a self-driven need within ourselves to be heard. Its what makes us popular as well as unpopular. However, its not the art of being heard that I am going to work towards for 2008 but its exact opposite. Yes ladies and gentlemen, its the art of invisibility and non-attention seeking that I am working towards for the new year. Many of the people reading my blog are then going to start asking the obvious questions, why keep writing the blog? Isn't that some sort of attention seeking? You can't just change like that overnight, can you? And, the answer to these questions will only be answered over the course of the year. I think I am tired of taking the light away from others or making others listen to what I have to say. I have realized its better to listen and acknowledge when you know there really is nothing better to offer. Does this make me a better person than an attention-seeker? Certainly not but I want to try it and see where it takes me.

Offer no solutions, preach no self-beliefs, just simply acknowledge what everyone says. Its going to be one of the hardest if not the most complicated changes I will have to implement but I think 365 days of this will teach me something I cannot learn from books or talks with my friends and when its done I will have gained something that I can finally call my own.

Wish Me Luck

Music Listened to While Writing This Post - U2 - Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For
Mood - F'ed Up